didnt know where else to put this

im so scared and frustrated. hopeless, useless, helpless. i dont know if i can do this anymore, keep trying and trying and going backward the whole time. this is actually killing me. its actually hurting my health and no matter what i try or what i do it just always gets worse.
i really hope nobody reads this. wish i was strong enough to not write this. wish i was strong enough to just fade away and stop fighting the inevitable.
im sorry to anyone who did read this. really wish you hadnt